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Starting From Scratch

I’ve been thinking of going back to writing stuff that makes me complete. I mean, I’m the kind of person who loves to write about anything but couldn’t seem to finish it for some reason…okay, I guess the passion dies down, I get mental blocks from time to time or for whatever the reason is.

Yep, I’m planning to go back into writing devotionals for next year but it will focus on certain topics that relates to me. As what every author says, you can never share something that is not based on experienced so I will focus on stuff that I have been learning and start from scratch.

Uhm, you might be asking why from scratch?

My recent post since early this year focused on the hard road of recovery from a very bad experience. And although I am still in the process of restoration, I strongly believe that if ever given the chance to speak about it – I would do so knowing that everyday is a constant reminder that I am created and still alive for a purpose. What an amazing grace I have experienced since then!

Okay, going back to the plan. The booklet will be entitled like “Starting From Scratch…” focusing on the restoration I have experienced through Christ, the love journey that started like a downhill and hope that didn’t disappoint me in the end.

I am not hoping that it will be published or whatsoever but it will be a book or booklet that will point me back to why the Lord has been in the process of my restoration, protection amidst everything else and the hope I strongly profess until now.

The bible says that we are being changed from glory to glory and that hope doesn’t disappoint us that even though we feel we are deteriorating, we have this hope in Him, through Christ. And that’s one message I could not bear to be silent about even when things go miry that expected.

Stay tuned and let’s see where this leads me.

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A Marketplace Lessons In The Parable of The Sower

I had an interview a couple of days ago for a supervisory academy role and the candidate was so on fire of his faith. It is amazing that we see people recommended for further training in leadership in the marketplace because of their stand, their work ethics and of course, their faith.

I have been a believer for most of my life and have worked in three industries for almost 11 years now. Since 2007, I ventured in the BPO marketplace which was the hyped industry at that time. I got in unexpectedly for a role I was not accustomed to, had my experience being trained and encountered a lot of errors in the making. But one thing for sure is amazing, I’m still here after 9 years and counting.

Now, going back to having that zeal in the workplace.

Jesus, the best author we can look into, talks about a parable of a farmer who went to work and did as he was always do day in and they out, Matthew 13 shares this story like this:

Then he (Jesus) told them many things in parables, saying: “A farmer went out to sow his seed. As he was scattering the seed, some fell along the path, and the birds came and ate it up.  Some fell on rocky places, where it did not have much soil. It sprang up quickly, because the soil was shallow. But when the sun came up, the plants were scorched, and they withered because they had no root.  Other seed fell among thorns, which grew up and choked the plants.  Still other seed fell on good soil, where it produced a crop—a hundred, sixty or thirty times what was sown.  Whoever has ears, let them hear.”

The marketplace, like a farm, is where I work. I often see this parable as something to consider when I’m at work. But more importantly, I tend to reflect on myself to as what kind of path I fell.

Considering the parable, Jesus gave us a good point in sharing the meaning of the parable is on the next few verses:

“Listen then to what the parable of the sower means: When anyone hears the message about the kingdom and does not understand it, the evil one comes and snatches away what was sown in their heart. This is the seed sown along the path.

I oftentimes doubt if I’m doing the right thing at work. I feel that I make some effort to make sure that I do my best to deliver results. In the long run, I often see myself moving away from what the bible speak about – specially about standing to what is right, to have the mind of Christ in all things and the fruit of the spirit in crucial times.

The seed falling on rocky ground refers to someone who hears the word and at once receives it with joy. But since they have no root, they last only a short time. When trouble or persecution comes because of the word, they quickly fall away. 

I honestly don’t brag about my faith. I seldom share it to my co-workers. I don’t talk about my faith as much as I want to. Of course, my actions will always reflect my christian standards but how long do I often make the mistake of not standing my ground to make sure I close an item? Ugh!

The seed falling among the thorns refers to someone who hears the word, but the worries of this life and the deceitfulness of wealth choke the word, making it unfruitful.

My walk in the Lord is not smooth. I am financially independent but I worry too much about my expenses. I often work just to pay off some debts and does not prioritize some stuff like before. I failed a couple of times with my tithes and oftentimes, give in to my drive to have a new gadget. (ugh,ugh!)

But the seed falling on good soil refers to someone who hears the word and understands it. This is the one who produces a crop, yielding a hundred, sixty or thirty times what was sown.”

But in all of these situations, I find myself referring to the word of God for comfort, for direction, for alignment and as much as I can for life lessons. This is where my faith fruits comes in. I see it in the way I talk, the way I do stuff and even with the ministry opportunities I have.

But let’s face this reality – being in the BPO industry has a lot of challenges and I honestly think that I’m currently intertwined with all of this at the same time at the moment.

I think I started the last few paragraphs with “Buts” justifying my actions and need to end with the reality that my faith comes from hearing (and correcting myself) for the benefit to grow in my father’s love, to my mentor’s teaching and to the one who’s lessons never fades in time. The word, as referred to the parable, is not just the gospel but the entire scripture that 2 Timothy 3:16 speaks about:

All Scripture is God-breathed and is useful for teaching, rebuking, correcting and training in righteousness,  so that the servant of God[a] may be thoroughly equipped for every good work.

Because of what God has done, I am confident in saying that I was taught the right way, rebuked and corrected and trained to walk this path with confidence to do every good work.

The Siblings To Keep

My siblings are my treasures. I often fight with them or scold them but I love them all. My sickness brought me to the understanding that although we have our differences, it’s really is a “blood thicker than water” no matter what.

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Just imagine my older sister whose kids I love the most. She might have some lapses and mistakes in her past but she’s been doing all stuff to provide and take care of the four kids. Strong-willed but caring,even to me when my mom was away is something worth sharing. Regardless of her past, I love the only princess in our home, she’s one gift I’ll never give away.

My younger brother is one to stick around. The 3 of us still calls him “gang”,an endearment since he was a kid. He sometimes becomes rebellious but not to the point of no turning back. He took care of me when I got sick. He cooked for my meals even without sleep and carried me around going up or down the stairs, pulled my wheelchair and even cleaned me up when I couldn’t do it myself. I saw his immaturity but I also experienced his love for me when he became a kuya at one point in time.

My other sibling is my twin brother. We’ve been the closest friend ever since high school. He loves me, no questions asked. He’s also the only person I listen to when scolded. There was a time where I cried because he didn’t visit me at home. I texted him and told him I cried in the bathroom for an hour. It didn’t take an hour for me to see him with an ice cream on hand. He took care of me, carried me and even fed me when I can’t hold a spoon steadily. He sticks closer than any friend and accepts me for who I am.

I’m sharing these things to honor their lives. It’s never too late to say “thank you” through this. And yes, I did say it to them more than once.

My Jehovah Jireh Indeed

Jehovah Jireh means the “YHWH Provides” in the Hebrew language. It depicts provision of the ONE who is able. I experienced this reality in three aspects of my life right now. Sharing here speaks of the testimony of Jesus in my life – past, present and future.

God is able to do exceedingly, abundantly above all I could ever ask for or even imagine.

Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us… Ephesians 3:20

He provided money for the entire duration of my medical struggles. I didn’t even experience lack even when on a five month hiatus at work. Simply amazing.

Of course, I loaned some money to pay my expenses but with a good condition to pay it when able. Isn’t that amazing?

Favor simply means having what’s not merited for us. I believe in this truth all through my ordeals even until now.

He is the peace that passes all our understanding.

And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus… Philippians 4:7

God gave me peace of mind. Having been diagnosed has its challenges but even in this great challenges, I find peace believing God is able to heal me. Four people have spoken words of healing to me. Three people dreamed of my healing in fullness. Hundreds prayed for me.

Can I just say “thank you” for all those times of God’s testing if I can stay put and trust him more even in the midst of circumstances. 

For His grace is sufficient in my weaknesses.

But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.”… 2 Corinthians 12:9

I have experienced being strong-willed, having the physical strength to do stuff I could do on my own. But as my senior pastor would say “it takes God to put me in bed for me to realize many stuff…” is true.

I spent the first month out of the hospital,immobilized to the point of my mom or brother cleaning me up. I even had myself bathed by my mom because I can’t bend down, my brother cleaning my dump, my other brother washing my clothes and papa fixing my food. I was messed up. But God’s grace is sufficient for my needs.

In my insufficiency, He is there. In my struggles, He is there. In my great need, He is there. Indeed, He is able.

Today, I shared my testimony at church because I had my lungs checked-up and got a negative results from two doctors, a fit to work per se. I’m pneumonia free after 5 months. The medicine works! God healed me!

Now to Him who is able to keep me from falling, be glory and power and praise forever more.

Just Another Medical Update as of February 2015

I’ve been in the house for almost three months now. It’s been a hard fight to stay put – knowing that I’m the kind of person who was on the go almost every day when I was still working.

And yet, it is the Lord’s will to slow me down. Yes, I have to admit that there are times I want to hasten everything but the process seems to slow down. It is indeed a redefining moment for me.

Indeed, a living testimony of His enabling grace which meant…

  • To trust the Lord for the medicine to work, gain additional weight and increase intake of food. As for last check-up, the doctor confirmed that I am regaining my strength and stamina compared to the last few months
  • To walk again after a month of not being able to stand on my feet. I can now walk all alone, stand longer hours during worship time and even bend down and bow which I couldn’t do before
  • Having His strength from “strength to strength” which made me to still rely at times to people. Something that the Lord is dealing with me for some time now

May you please join me in prayer for the next few lines…

  • Financial provision for my next laboratory tests since I’m scheduled on March 23 for my medical check-up for my lungs and immune system
  • Travel to Bacolod to finish the laboratory and check-ups
  • Physical stamina and strength when I travel for the laboratory examinations which can last the entire day because it will be the same procedure as when I got admitted
  • Complete healing in my lungs as I feel better but of course, it will only be the doctor’s final word that can confirm that
  • To wait patiently before the Lord. It’s hard to wait; it’s harder to go from one phase to another.
  • Opportunities to open-up once I’m completely well and can go back to work

 

There have been a lot of changes lately, including my pattern of living. I am amazed on how the Lord has led me to trust God for my daily needs. Above all, to entrust to him my medical condition and complete healing.

Almost every time when I’m worshiping the Lord in my private quarter or at the church when tears will just fall and I would weep. I’m too emotional with my condition to the extent that I get easily disappointed, discouraged or feels discomfort.

But in all of these, I am more convinced that God is able to continue His purposes for me. That what He started in me will be completed in His due time.