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My Jehovah Jireh Indeed

Jehovah Jireh means the “YHWH Provides” in the Hebrew language. It depicts provision of the ONE who is able. I experienced this reality in three aspects of my life right now. Sharing here speaks of the testimony of Jesus in my life – past, present and future.

God is able to do exceedingly, abundantly above all I could ever ask for or even imagine.

Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us… Ephesians 3:20

He provided money for the entire duration of my medical struggles. I didn’t even experience lack even when on a five month hiatus at work. Simply amazing.

Of course, I loaned some money to pay my expenses but with a good condition to pay it when able. Isn’t that amazing?

Favor simply means having what’s not merited for us. I believe in this truth all through my ordeals even until now.

He is the peace that passes all our understanding.

And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus… Philippians 4:7

God gave me peace of mind. Having been diagnosed has its challenges but even in this great challenges, I find peace believing God is able to heal me. Four people have spoken words of healing to me. Three people dreamed of my healing in fullness. Hundreds prayed for me.

Can I just say “thank you” for all those times of God’s testing if I can stay put and trust him more even in the midst of circumstances. 

For His grace is sufficient in my weaknesses.

But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.”… 2 Corinthians 12:9

I have experienced being strong-willed, having the physical strength to do stuff I could do on my own. But as my senior pastor would say “it takes God to put me in bed for me to realize many stuff…” is true.

I spent the first month out of the hospital,immobilized to the point of my mom or brother cleaning me up. I even had myself bathed by my mom because I can’t bend down, my brother cleaning my dump, my other brother washing my clothes and papa fixing my food. I was messed up. But God’s grace is sufficient for my needs.

In my insufficiency, He is there. In my struggles, He is there. In my great need, He is there. Indeed, He is able.

Today, I shared my testimony at church because I had my lungs checked-up and got a negative results from two doctors, a fit to work per se. I’m pneumonia free after 5 months. The medicine works! God healed me!

Now to Him who is able to keep me from falling, be glory and power and praise forever more.


The 2015 1st Quarter Mandate

I’ve been into the online world most of the times to let the day finish. It’s my way to make sure I can sleep straight at night because of the medications. I often sleep early a month ago ending myself to wake-up by 3AM. I couldn’t get back to sleep even if I want to.

But things change lately and part of it is to stay awake the whole day to make sure that by around 9PM, I can easily dose off to sleep. And yes, it’s pretty much a big help!

It’s 2015 and although I’m still in my recuperating stage, I need to get back on track for some things. This is to make sure that I also won’t forget some of my skills and critical thinking mindset. Of course, I’m not pushing myself to my limit. I’m taking it one small step at a time.

Just like a couple of weeks ago wherein I can’t even walk but decided to do something about it. I decided to walk without the aide of anyone else. Good thing I didn’t fell or bumped myself in doing so!

For this quarter, I intend to do some stuff which can basically help with my healing namely:

  1. Write a bi-weekly post on my personal blog (AlterEgo Project) and ministry blog ( The Forerunners Movement) to sedate myself.
  2. Try to roam around the grocery store twice-a-week to strengthen my legs and stamina in standing.
  3. Start helping out with the ministries I left behind like Generations Project, missions mobilization and preparing some training materials for some possible opportunities.
  4. Wait for opportunities to come up either in ministry or work.

I know the Lord has a lot in store for me but I must take one step at a time. It’s a prerogative to rest but I also need to have the will to live and be healed completely and without much complications.

Again, I rest my case before the Lord. I don’t want to rush things through and I’m all ears to what He intends to accomplish through these season.

2015’s Year of Jubilee

The year 2015 is my Jubilee year! I felt the nudge before 2014 ended that something is different for the year up ahead. I just know that it will be far more than what I’m imagining but at the same time challenging. It’s a transition stage as many would say.

For now, I just need to wait and rest. As the Lord showed his faithfulness for last quarter, I will see still His goodness to abound as I recuperate and wait upon the Lord’s direction for the year.

If you’re reading this post and felt the nudge to pray with me for my year, please do. It’s a new direction I’m facing and decisions have to be made that gave me peace even when it hurts. It’s a choice if I want to heal myself and stride to where and when He (my maker) leads me.

Thank you for reading.

Overcoming Life’s Expectations

It’s amazing how God can change our perspective. Back when I was in college, I feared for my future. It came to a point to even questioning God why I had to experience those circumstances before. But that was 10 years ago and God has changed and blessed my life like never before.


My small group discussion last night focused on why God allows hardships in our life. The activity allowed everyone to share their current dilemmas and apply God’s word in their own circumstances. It was amazing to see the group interact with one another. Another good thing that happened is that we get to learn the different struggles each of us faced and encouraged one another.

It was a simple fellowship with the exciting truth that God will always take care of us. This is the main reason why we can overcome anything in life. It’s because of what He did on the cross that we overcame sin and death, his grace and favor that allows us to go through difficult situations and come out victorious and because only of his mercy that we live in the promises of his words day in and out.

How about you? Are you struggling right now? How can God help through your circumstances? How do you intend to go through it? Do you have any concrete plans on how to solve it?

Your answers can impact everything you are going through and can change the very situation upside-down.

Here are a few learning from last night:

  1. The abundant life God offers is not an easy life but a journey filled with so many things, including tough experiences. It’s what makes life spicy. (John 10:10)
  2. We can overcome the world by God’s grace because He was able to do it for us. (John 16:33)
  3. He will take care of our future because He promised to do so but we have to do something by faith to get there. (Jeremiah 33:10)
  4. After tough experiences comes restoration and steadfastness ( 1 Peter 5:10)
  5. We have a new life in Christ because He died for us (Isaiah 53:5)

Be blessed today!

Thoughts On My Iloilo Experience

“Yet this I call to mind and therefore I have hope: Because of the LORD’s great love we are not consumed, for his compassion never fail.”  – Lamentations 3:21-22 
I was in Iloilo City last weekend for work and ministry. I had the great opportunity to minister together with some friends who are also into prophetic ministry. It was a great time to see God move in great heights as both young and old received restoration, encouragement and blessings during the event.
Significantly, almost 3/4 of the crowd were young people, they were scattered everywhere – sitting by twos on chairs, squatting on the floor and standing at the back. There was a group ageing 14 years old and as old as college students everywhere. Indeed, God is fulfilling his promise to raise up a generation for his purposes to be fulfilled in this season.
I had mixed emotions ministering to them last Saturday. Some of the people I’ve ministered to where young people who’ve been through a lot of difficult and shattering circumstances. Some have just learned that their parents are separating, students who fear for their future and even their own challenges accepting their personality identity. These are just some of the many concerns that they were pouring out when I started praying for them.
Looking at what happened last Saturday led me to think through a lot of things. I even asked myself on how can God move in this generation wherein difficult circumstances envelope their life? If only I could do something to turn their situation around.  
Like the stories I’ve heard, I’ve been through a lot growing up and it is only because of God’s grace and favor that I’m still alive and kicking. I also saw how the Holy Spirit moved through me with the gift of wisdom and knowledge when dealing with difficult kids and their situations before.
My own experiences growing up in a broken home led me to minister effectively to young people. God’s unending favor in my life, even with my current work and ministry opportunities speaks of a bright future I never thought of before. But more importantly, my own circumstances led me closer to the Lord and not far away from him. 
I may never know what will happen to the youth I’ve prayed with but I’m certain that God is in control in their situations. I know that God will mold them and prepare them for a good future. He will never leave nor forsake them even in their darkest hour and even in their triumphs.

My prayer is that this generation will not pray for an easy life or an easy way out of life but they will pray for strength, wisdom and will draw closer to God through their circumstances because He never fails.

Indeed, Christ’s invitation for the abundant life includes difficult experiences that will produce more grace, more wisdom and more favor coming from him.
But above all, I know God will produce in them the very purpose of his calling for this generation and, it will always be good just like how God made mine. 😉