When Work Has Its Challenges…


We face difficulties and challenges differently. I for one would strategize how to get out of the situation, create resolutions and start working to sort things out. But other people respond differently. A friend of mine usually tries to detach herself to people when faced with challenges while another one, bursts out in discouragement and talks about it to everyone he meets.

Regardless of the challenges, one thing is for sure, our attitude determines our response to the situation. Responding negatively only brings more problems and frustration while responding the positive way helps fix the situation. We need to become part of the solution and not the problem.

Adopting the right attitude can convert a negative stress into a positive one. -Hans Selye

Here are a couple of things I am learning while experiencing the challenges:

  1. Listen to other people’s concern but never retaliate – LISTEN. It pays to listen to a co-worker when they are venting out their frustrations. Although it might push us to retaliate when words gets very sharp but having the patience to sit for some time and know the root cause can help us better understand the situation.
  2. Affirm the other person’s point of view but rebuke when needed – the person will keep on telling the group that he or she is right. Regardless of how negative this may sound, affirming their remarks and observations helps the person to open up. We need to understand that this gives us the edge to also give our side of the observation. It becomes different when the person now pinpoints other people’s mistakes instead on focusing on what really is going on. That’s when rebuke comes in. I always remind myself to “rebuke with love” – the statement may be hard to take but sharing it the right way, without raising your voice and using right words that brings clarity not hatred matters.
  3. Always be cool-headed when talking to someone – having two hot-headed people in one room is too much. Someone will retaliate at any moment. According to my favorite author Zig Ziglar “Your attitude, not your aptitude, will determine your altitude…” and being cool even when discussing hot issues gives balance and resolution always.
  4. If needed, we need to be firm with what needs to be done and get both side’s commitment – verbalizing our comments, commitment and even with a simple “yes” or “no” can level the game. It always takes two or more people to fix the issue; it can never be resolved with you just absorbing everything. You need to tell the right people and discuss resolutions. Get the commitment of the person concerned to “move on” and do something about it and if possible, not talk about it anymore in a negative way.

I hope the things I’ve shared help. And if it does, please let me know! 😉


The “Aftershock” Experience

The camp was a blast! Here’s a pic compilation from the travel and during the event itself.

I believe God is doing something in Butuan City, regardless of what our eyes have seen. God is bringing down walls to breakforth into a  level of intimacy. 

Here is what the Lord shared in my heart during my early devotion before I step in to the area. 

Sharing this to you and see if this aligns to your heart. I have received this word last Wednesday upon our arrival and may it encourage you to bring Butuan in prayer as well.

Prophetic Word for Butuan Area: Romans 8

The spirit of God comes in power, the manifested presence that brought Jesus up from death is the same power that is at work in you. He shall be the quickening spirit that will bring light into the darkness. Because you are his remnant, the heirs of promise, the firstborn of what God is doing in this area.

And in this same authority, the Father gives both the glorious riches of His power to dwell in you.

So, do not fear if men rejects you but be excited because God is up to something and He wants to partner with you in the days to come. He will lift you up in due time, the bearings of the past does not define the fruit of the future. The remnant God is giving you is new, it is the mantle of sonship, the authority to thread on, build, uproot and restore.

And even if you see hardship,pain and fear in the naked eyes,God is saying move forward, move beyond what you see, move in the mindset of just being ordinary because it will drain you…but when sonship comes, authority to receive destiny is at hand.

For I have heard your prayers for so long, the desire to take this land as inheritance, the desire to bring in the harvest, to train and equip, to build the work of Christ in you, the hope of glory.

Have I not promised you in the past that I will be with you?have I not spoken my words to quicken you to move forward? have I not given you instruction that you will know what will the right steps be in season.

Behold I am opening doors for you and no man can shut it. I am expanding your territory, I am enlarging your tent, declares the Lord.There will be birth pains and struggles and fear of rejection and a battle to fight for.

But my love will sustain you,my grace is sufficient for you,my power is made known when weakness arises. Take delight in receiving your portion from this point forward.

You will see that I will fulfill it to you and the next kin of you,from this generation forward, I shall speak my blessings towards you.

Let us pray for Butuan City and its area because God will visit the place and will call His people to arise from dryness to a fulfilling season of rain and rebuilding.

Butuan City, Youth Camp and A Lot of Other Stuff

It’s the last day of April and I am excited to what’s in store for next month. For one, I’m going for the first time in 7 years back to the National Youth Camp, only this time, as a kuya. 

Butuan City, according to wikipedia:

Butuan (pronounced /bˈtwɑːn/), officially the City of Butuan (ButuanonDakbayan hong ButuanCebuanoDakbayan sa ButuanTagalogLungsod ng Butuan) and often referred to as Butuan City, is a highly urbanized city in the Philippines and the regional center of Caraga. It is located at the northeastern part of the Agusan Valley, Mindanao, sprawling across the Agusan River. It is bounded to the north, west and south by Agusan del Norte, to the east by Agusan del Sur and to the northwest by Butuan Bay. According to the 2015 census, it has a population of 337,063 people.[4]

I believe God is doing something in the city and we are all excited what He will reveal through this season. 

Please pray also for our youth group of twenty something as we travel from Negros Oriental to Cebu by bus and barge and by boat overnight all the way to Nasipit. 

Also,since it will be on a weekday, I’ll be out of the office for the entire week and my boss approved of it. Wohoo!

And oh, I’m also helping with some church stuff with NIHOP’s Negros Youth Convergence 2017:

So,it is going to be a hectic month on top of work so please pray for the following:

  • Provision for travel, the activities and for my family as well
  • Protection in all the travels, promotional stints for the events
  • Good health as I do stuff because you know how I become workaholic

I appreciate your reading and send me a comment if you agree with me in prayer! Salamat!

At Random Shots

Just sharing some shots from my Asus Zenfone max 3 5.5 here. I hope you enjoy some of my “phoneography”while I tinker my new gadget and see where this will lead me. 

I guess I’m quite satisfied with my camera and I’ll post more when time permits. 

God In The Marketplace…

Just wanted to share my testimony today:

An applicant came for an interview today and while going through the interview, shared his views about God and being an atheist. He is very knowledgeable on the theories and gave his points.

The Lord led me to ask him one simple question which led him to share that his belief might not be an absolute truth. I then asked if there was a time wherein he did ask God if he is real and he shared about a time when his mom had an operation and he prayed that if “He exists” then he will make his mom’s operation successful which the Lord granted. 

This gave me a way to bring in the truth of God’s way of showing himself to him. And with wisdom, looked right into his eyes and said these words “God showed his existence by answering your small prayer.” It led me to directly speak to his heart challenging his belief by blurting out that with your own experience of seeing your mom be healed was proof enough that a higher being was at work.

The applicant agreed to what I said and led him to share another life and death situation wherein the doctor gave his mom the final verdict after his accident,if after 8 hours in coma, there is a big possibility for him to die in a few hours. His mom prayed f0r him and after 1 hr and 30 mins, he woke up as if nothing happened.

This gave me the courage to give a bold statement to him – do not wait for God to show off his supernatural power through your experience in expense of your life. Because if you deny His existence even after these experiences, then you are actually trying to deny the very things you are seeing in your own eyes.

He ended up asking if we have a church in Basay he could go to where he could learn more of this same God I’m talking about. I ended up giving him my calling card and invited him on our Purity Ball with this assurance – If God has led you here for this reason and if you pass all our exams and interviews. I tell you, this is the starting point wherein God will turn it all around and you will experience the truth of God in a different way. 

And this applicant passed all our exams in one take and I know our God is not yet done revealing himself to him.


Kuya Vir


The Life And Tasks Of A Corporate Rat Racer

There are a lot of things in the corporate world that differs from the church setting, specially in the leadership style and in doing things. In the corporate rat race, being a leader is having strong will, sometimes, demanding attitude to make others work their way to fulfilling the goal. Whereas, in church leadership, it’s very much different.

I for one is struggling juggling both. In my corporate work, I am to delegate stuff, make sure we hit the goal or target and has the right to demand people to push their limits to the test. In reality, this is where I struggle the most. I am the kind of person who can work by myself and help people a lot by doing it.


Delegation, in the simplest of terms, is giving the task to someone to accomplish, and this is where I have the weakest point. I sometimes don’t want to delegate because I fear of the outcome.

Another fear that I have is confrontation, I hate to deal with people who has a stronger personality than I have. I mean, I can talk to them head-on but the gruesome idea of discussing the terms and conditions, the reality and the ideals they have in life of a leader seems to be off the bat for me.


But the good thing in our workplace is that after much discussion, re-alignment and more patience, we tend to end up on the same page and make sure that we are more than willing to change, accept our differences and start building each other up. It might be a challenge for me to step up from someone doing stuff to delegating stuff to others but right now, I’m getting the hang of it.

In the christian perspective, we work to provide for ourselves and our family and wherever the Lord has placed us, we need to bear in mind that we all do these things because we want Christ to be known in the marketplace, the domain where the Lord has placed us.

So, with these thoughts I end this blog post, with much relief that I’m doing what is intentionally the right thing to do and not because of a standard the world has to give.

Thank you for reading. 🙂


I Have A Brother Who Keeps

I’ve punched my brother five times in less than a minute. It was out of frustration and hate of the words he said through text. I felt relieved knowing that he didn’t actually hit back.

Guess who’s who on the picture?

The funny thing about our incident last Sunday was that the young people at church was shock why I punched my brother, Kuya Viz and that he didn’t fight back. They kept bugging me why their Kuya Viz didn’t do anything after my actions and I told them that it is how we cope up with our misunderstandings.

My brother is over-protective and he shows “tough love” because he knew for a fact I’m stubborn most of the time. But in the end, we figure things out and after punching him hard, hugged him and everything was fine. Yep, we don’t say “sorry” to each other but deep down inside, we both know how to work things out and keep each other’s back.

Our senior pastor shared about “brother’s keeper” a couple of weeks ago and I totally agree with how she reiterated the story of Cain and Abel. It was to instill in us the idea that regardless of what is happening, at the end of the day, we value and protect each other. That’s how it is with me and my siblings. I thank the Lord for the renewing of my mindset that Viz, tough as he is, has his pure intentions to keep me safe as always.

On that same day, I shared my frustrations and the testimony of how a brotherly love kept me aligned with the things in my life. Viz, on the other hand, shared about why he did it. I know, both of us, at the end of the day, realized that he kept me safe from harm and I kept him in-tuned to the things he is saying.

Why am I sharing it here? Because like me, I know someone out there is reading this who has a sister or a brother that tends to do their own way, even when we correct them. I know it will hurt them but rebuking them in love keeps them safe from harm. Remember Proverbs 27:5 is our basis in doing this – Better is open rebuke than hidden love. 

If you need help on how to bridge back that relationship with your siblings, send me a comment or a private message! I’d love to help out as much as I can! 

Thanks for reading!

Updates and More

The last blog post was way over two months! Anyway,I’ve been wanting to update you guys for a couple of things but didn’t have the time to really sit down and write. 

But here’s an early morning update before I head to work:

Staying Put In Dumaguete

Yes,I’ve made up my mind to stay put because of a couple of things but the main reason is family and promotion at work. I’m now a recruitment officer in my company with a big team.

Being Sick Again

I know I have to take care of my health and I’ve been hearing that all week. But I do hope people will also consider the effort I’m bringing in. I had an infection but was given antibiotics already. The lab results returned normal and the doc didn’t say anything weird.

Fights and Misunderstanding with Bro

I am no longer talking to my twin brother for now. He keeps telling me I’m under his leadership and no one is questioning that but he is close minded and insisting stuff even without having the time to sit down and talk to me. 

One thing he needs to learn about leadership is to learn to listen and not demand to be accepted and followed without questioning.

Letting Go On Boot Camp 2016 Responsibilities

I’m supposed to help with the camp this December but I can’t work with someone who feels he knows better and doesn’t listen to suggestion. And keeps pointing the past to reckon with. 

Lastly, I posted in Facebook that when telling the truth to someone sets people free but how you deliver it hurts the person. And yes, that’s what he did.

With Much Regret And Excitement

I’m sitting here in the office not ready to begin my mid-day work. I spent most of the night thinking through what lies ahead and weigh the pros and cons of my final decision. After much thought, I am more inclined to accept the offer in Bacolod as a sourcing lead for my previous company.

For one, the position offered is for promotion. It’s three steps higher than what I have now. It is also the third offer within the year that I got without applying for the role. I guess, God is trying to give a hint about this promotion ever since I started the year. But learning to see God moving His way beyond my control, I know it’s time for me to take the baton.

Just a quick recap, I got a call a few months back for a Senior Assistant Manager role for Davao, passed all the interviews up to the Senior Vice-President level and was offered a good relocation package and incentive scheme. And after a gruesome one month waiting, I was not allowed to get the job due to family issues.

Another opportunity came for a Recruitment and Sourcing Officer role in one of the big BPO player to start in Cagayan, same story and same outcome – I declined the offer because I was not up to relocate in Cagayan De Oro all by myself.

A good thought for this new journey up ahead

But the offer in Bacolod came like a hope in the midst of my chaos. I want to move out but I felt that the best offer is yet to come. My previous company called me up and asked for an appointment for a quick interview. After that meeting, I gave an amount and guess what, they actually offered much higher than I was expecting.

Uhm, let’s just say P 8,000 higher on top of allowances from the previous offers.

I grabbed the offer and said “yes” but the excitement dies down when everyone in your family once again said “NO”.

Personally, I felt that I need to make some changes because I am stuck here for more than a year now but I felt that there was no growth. With days and nights coming closer to my start date, I feel that I find peace in accepting the offer in Bacolod instead of declining it.

At the end of it all, I am fully convinced that drafting my resignation letter today and submitting it to them by the end of my shift is something I need to do with much regret to leave new friends behind and get excited to what God has in store for me back in Bacolod.

Water Is What I Need

One of my favorite books in the bible is Isaiah. It is filled with a lot of great insights and encouragement of who God is in every situation of our lives – past, present or our future.

The verse above came out of nowhere when I wanted to look for a verse that speaks about hope in a hopeless case situation. And it also reminded me that my momentary trials are opportunities for God to move on my behalf, in my situation and in my future. I may not understand how everything will be accomplished or even how God can intervene but I am rest assured on one thing – He is in control.

A couple of months ago, I started reading an autobiography about Shane Stanford, “A Positive Life” has a lot of insight about God’s plans in a person and his family. His insights and wisdom about life and his situation makes it more interesting. 

Now back to Isaiah… God spoke to His people in a very hopeless situation. Here are a couple of insights I got from this verse:

  1. God’s guidance is always available even in the hardest of times – I am reminded that the word of God is useful to give guidance for all of our needs. In my personal life, it rebukes me, it taught me how to fight the right way and train me for what I am now.
  2. Hope is what waters our inner-being to move forward – I oftentimes feel that my experience will never change. There were times that I felt that I’m going to die. But I started to read the word of God once again. It energized me to not just dwell on my situation but start to fix my life. It was during this time that I started to practice walking, regain my balance in life and regained back my weight.
  3. The Lord’s promises are “yes” and “amen” and my future is His hands – God restored my health, brought back favor in my life and increased my influence in the ministry the Lord has entrusted me.
  4. The outcome will always be positive – God is not just in control, He reigns over all things in my life and because of that, He has completed everything through the cross. My future is secured. 

How about you? What are the things God has been showing you lately through His words? Remember, it waters us to be fully blessed and flourish wherever the Lord has placed us.

Looking Forward For Change

The past few days seems to be erratic. There were times when I feel very motivated and pursuing my career seems doing fine but lately, I feel inadequate on my tasks and people are seem more capable to what I can do.

I also feel that there are a couple of things I wanted to change. I believe that I’ve been into this corporate rat race without the clear motivation of why I have been doing this for more than 10 years now. I think it’s time for change and change as they say can either for the good or bad of something.

Sitting down here, with a book on hand and my laptop on seems to be where I want to be. No pressure or even the gutsy feeling to finish some stuff seems a bit offbeat. I just want to rest, be at peace and even for once, indulge myself in not thinking about work.

I loved my career more than myself that after a very life-changing sickness did not stop the drive to put everything on hold. It’s like a drug that the more you withdraw from it, the stronger the drive for you to get more.

But looking forward to what lies ahead brings me hope, it brings clarity and perspective. Yes, I’m closely in the brink of resigning and make some changes. I want to do stuff that I’m passionate about while doing work on the sideline. I want to break from the cycle of doing errands for bosses and make new things for myself, without the rush, without the pressure and yes,without the overtime.

Of course, these are just a couple of things in mind. It may be gone after this post or it may linger to the point of printing my resignation letter. Clearly, I’m wanting more than just being a corporate junkie and become a person worth more than what this work gives.

This Is One Of Those Times…

I want to just scream, burst every frustrating words I could utter and just disregard how others may react to what I said. But yeah, I’m not like that and even if I wanted to, I end up lurking in my room and not talk about it.

Bearing responsibilities which are supposed not for me to keep is what pisses me off. Just imagine having to do stuff because they have decided it for you instead of you making your own choices because it’s your money.

I love to help and with whole-hearted sincerity can do so many things but when you are forced to do it even if you don’t have the means to provide is another story.

How I wish it can be different again. Where the burden to provide is not on my shoulder and I can choose how I spend my money in what I feel is important for me.

Whew, at least that’s out of my system right now. I can’t bear to see my nieces and nephews suffer for some decisions my sister did in the past. And I don’t want to blurt her mistakes in front of them either.

When these emotions subsides, it still goes back to the reality of doing it out of love, kindness and sincerity. It is a promise I’ve kept for these four kids to myself.

And even if I’m going to be mad about it again and again, it doesn’t change the fact that I’m going to buy these stuff for them. Hays, I guess I just wanted to be blunt about it and be at peace with it.

“Dear Father, 

I am frustrated and finds it hard to accept the things that are going on. It’s like having to want to ignore these things and feel numb to whatever the outcome may be…but I guess, I am not like that. 

May I have peace, self-control and patience to just say silent and be in control on how I talk and feel this time…amen”

Movie Review: The War Room

I see in you a warrior that needs to be awakened… – Miss Clara, The War Room, 2015.


I saw this movie last Sunday and decided to save a copy on my mobile phone. It’s a great story that doesn’t just challenge you to pray but allows you to get a clearer picture that what God’s promises are true and when applied can be a powerful tool.

The story is described by IMB as:

Filled with heart, humor, and wit, WAR ROOM follows Tony and Elizabeth Jordan, a couple who seemingly have it all-great jobs, a beautiful daughter, their dream home. But appearances can be deceiving. In reality, their marriage has become a war zone and their daughter is collateral damage. With guidance from Miss Clara, an older, wiser woman, Elizabeth discovers she can start fighting for her family instead of against them. As the power of prayer and Elizabeth’s newly energized faith transform her life, will Tony join the fight and become the man he knows he needs to be? Together, their real enemy doesn’t have a prayer.

After watching it the second time around, I tried to write some of the lessons. Here are some of the things I’ve realized:

1. Family circumstances can change when we let God be in control – There was a part in the movie that shows Elizabeth praying in her closet after learning that Tony was with another woman. It was at this point that she shows an open heart to accept that in order for her family to change, she has to accept that she’s not in control. Elizabeth quoting the scriptures while praying strongly shows that scriptural prayer works powerfully and that when we declare what God promises in His word through our situations, God takes the lead behind the scenes.

2. The truth sets us free from condemnation and deceit – There were some funny parts of the story that gives simple truths, one of this is when Miss Clara shared spiritual truths through simple examples. Also, Elizabeth overcame her fear from condemnation and made declarations for her home and family. One of the strongest most powerful scene is when she prayed across the room and declared that her house is under new management. I had goosebumps while watching that scene.

3. Believing even when change is not yet seen – What Elizabeth said about trust gives us the assurance that even when we are not seeing the result yet, God will answer it His way one way or another so that “we can all win…”. She started to pray longer, spends more time with her daughter and influenced her in a positive way. The story also shows that when we start praying, the first thing that will change is our own perspective of things, our attitude and response to situations.


4. Sometimes, our fear itself cripples our thoughts to see the change we want to see – the story shifted from Elizabeth to Tony once he read the message from her wife’s friend about the recent visit to Atlanta. He feared for his life and made him think of negatively of his wife. He swapped his meal thinking his wife has bad intentions for preparing dinner.

5. Our response to situations changes when we rely on the Lord to move in our behalf- Tony responded differently when he got kicked out of work but Elizabeth responded differently. She was more positive instead of being sarcastic and angry. Tony on the other hand ends up fearful and distracted,even to the point of defending what has happened.

6. Realization brings freedom to see the change God is doing in our midst – When Tony was looking for his gym bag, he noticed that his wife’s closet was empty and prayer letters were posted on the wall. Tony also came home with a new perspective after his pep talk with his friend and by looking to what his wife was doing. He started to look at the situation differently and it was noticeable that He also wanted to change and ends up with the scene Tony kneling down to pray.


7. God changes our mindset and forgiving someone is our starting point – Tony asked for forgiveness for what he did to his wife and daughter and Elizabeth extended forgiveness to his husband. The same thing happened after Tony made a visit to his former boss and asks for forgiveness from him. His former boss forgave him on a later part of the story.

8. Never live in our past regrets – Elizabeth’s visit to Miss Clara shifted from grumbling to sharing the good things of what’s going on. Elizabeth wanted to meet his mentor’s husband and this is when Miss Clara shared her own story and told Elizabeth on her past mistakes. This part of the story gave me a better ubderstanding on how we should handle past mistakes. It shows a very good lesson that when we let go of our past, we don’t let go of the lessons it entails but move on to do something about it.

9. We can never share what we have not seen or heard – the story as a whole revolves around our own familiar circumstances and how God can change our perspective and the entire situation. Miss Clara challened Elizabeth to share what she has experienced and she also prayed for another person to meet where she can teach her to fight for her family on her knees.

10. Redemption is embedded in our christian genes – Not all story has a happy ending but this one has – Tony gets a job that he wants, Elizabeth was treated well with ice cream and a foot massage while Miss Clara got her prayers answered through Elizabeth taking the challenge. Its is part that I realized that grace is truly one gift that we can have even when we don’t deserve but redemption is our very destiny regardless of the outcome is. It is what Christ did on the cross that sets us free from regrets, our failures and sin. It was His promise and will not change in time.


As a whole, the story just didn’t just challenged me to start praying but gave me a clearer direction on what to do. The love I received from Him in my own life is something worth to keep and share. It is important that we keep sharing what we’ve heard and learned through the scriptures. And that its also important to respond correctly when circumstances arises.

How about you, what have you learned through the movie? Share it to others because you’ll never know how God can use that situation for His name to be known.

God bless!

Starting From Scratch

I’ve been thinking of going back to writing stuff that makes me complete. I mean, I’m the kind of person who loves to write about anything but couldn’t seem to finish it for some reason…okay, I guess the passion dies down, I get mental blocks from time to time or for whatever the reason is.

Yep, I’m planning to go back into writing devotionals for next year but it will focus on certain topics that relates to me. As what every author says, you can never share something that is not based on experienced so I will focus on stuff that I have been learning and start from scratch.

Uhm, you might be asking why from scratch?

My recent post since early this year focused on the hard road of recovery from a very bad experience. And although I am still in the process of restoration, I strongly believe that if ever given the chance to speak about it – I would do so knowing that everyday is a constant reminder that I am created and still alive for a purpose. What an amazing grace I have experienced since then!

Okay, going back to the plan. The booklet will be entitled like “Starting From Scratch…” focusing on the restoration I have experienced through Christ, the love journey that started like a downhill and hope that didn’t disappoint me in the end.

I am not hoping that it will be published or whatsoever but it will be a book or booklet that will point me back to why the Lord has been in the process of my restoration, protection amidst everything else and the hope I strongly profess until now.

The bible says that we are being changed from glory to glory and that hope doesn’t disappoint us that even though we feel we are deteriorating, we have this hope in Him, through Christ. And that’s one message I could not bear to be silent about even when things go miry that expected.

Stay tuned and let’s see where this leads me.

It is Life As We Know It

The year is almost ending and I’ve been seeing a lot of things unfold in my life. One good reminder came from my brother, Viz who sent an SMS early Sunday morning reminding me of my commitment to the Lord.

Another reminder came from the song on the same day at the beach by Matt Redman’s “10,000 Reasons” that speaks about life and why we praise God for all that HE IS.

Sincerely, 2015 has been a good year. I was healed of my sickness by February, got a new job that I love by March and regularized from work by September and it’s almost December with a good performance at work!

And yes, I gained weight! From a fragile 32 kilograms to a good 56 kilograms means more than gold right now. My colleagues are also saying that my cheeks are noticeably chubby, my tummy big and I have muscles (yeah!).

What can lie ahead is up to my creator, but in all these blessings, I speak from the heart when I say “thank you” to all who’ve prayed, laid hands on me, declared blessing and provided for my needs. It is a never-ending “thank you” until the Lord will open-up heaven’s gates to shower it’s blessing to your life!

For A Thousand Reasons

Today marks the first day I first set foot once again on a beach after almost a year fearing to be in one. As I see the sunrise,the waves and the sea breeze on my face makes me just raise my hands to praise my creator.


I remember this same day a year ago when I started to make changes. I was skinny,I couldn’t stand for long and I don’t want to talk to people. I was at the peak of my depression when the Lord met me. I found myself at the arms of my mother at midnight,just singing one song that seems to be alive that time – “Hesus Pagkamaayo Mo”.

The lyrics spoke to my heart. It says what my heart was feeling at that time. Regardless of what my fears were,my situation didn’t define who God is in my life. It was through a series of midnight songs that I sang my heart,cried to my savior and ends up relieved.


As I wake-up today,I find myself just wanting to be at the beach. I wanted to see and wait until the sun shows up. And while doing that, I find it true that sometimes a song speaks of what our situation is, of who God is or can be today and His promises are true.

“Dear Father, Your name is lifted up today. By your stripes,I’ve been set free and healed. From every limitation,I have found your grace sustaining me.

Today marks the day I stepped out from depression a year ago. It was a time of finding what can happen to me,what you’ve done and can do in my situation. I praise you for those times but I thank you for today,I am well – healed and restored one day at a time. Amen.”

Past,Present or Future

I just came from an afternoon fellowship with some young people at church. We had an hour of spontaneous worship that spoke of the goodness of God in our lives.

All throughtout the journey, I find myself feeling unworthy to speak life,I keep on hearing about my own unworthiness that it was hard to move on.

The past paved its way and left a scar,it will always be visible. It will always be a reminder. It can never be forgotten or erased in time. This truth keeps popping up from my mind from the time we started to sing of a song that speaks about the Lord blessing my soul that I may worship him ( 10,000 Reasons).

How I face the present or the future is a battle that has been won thousand of years ago but must be lived on a daily basis. This came into my mind when I started singing God’s unchangeable nature,unshakeable love and unstoppable grace (You Are God Alone ).

I might think differently today but unsure of what the future unfolds. But one thing remains, one that even when people fail to see in me, I have been redeemed, I have been forgiven, I have been given grace. And even when I seem to doubt or my past might cloud my future, I will live in heaven. This was his promise, it is unchanging,it is eternal,it is true.


With this,I end with a prayer that I wanted to utter loudly. And it goes like this –

Father, my past will always hurt me. It has become a battle I have not won. What I think I won through the cross seems to be a sad trial I fail to overcome.

I am at a point where I don’t know where all these will lead me,or if ever I can move on with the future you have promised.

I am in doubt, I don’t doubt your goodnes, I just doubt myself that even when everything seems to be okay for now. I have this gut-feel it will not be.

Accepting this truth,as what you have said in your word is one step to freedom.

So,with all my fears,with all my learnings and my present dillemma, I lay it all back to you. I may not hold my future, but you do. I may never see what lies ahead but you are there even in the end of time.



A Marketplace Lessons In The Parable of The Sower

I had an interview a couple of days ago for a supervisory academy role and the candidate was so on fire of his faith. It is amazing that we see people recommended for further training in leadership in the marketplace because of their stand, their work ethics and of course, their faith.

I have been a believer for most of my life and have worked in three industries for almost 11 years now. Since 2007, I ventured in the BPO marketplace which was the hyped industry at that time. I got in unexpectedly for a role I was not accustomed to, had my experience being trained and encountered a lot of errors in the making. But one thing for sure is amazing, I’m still here after 9 years and counting.

Now, going back to having that zeal in the workplace.

Jesus, the best author we can look into, talks about a parable of a farmer who went to work and did as he was always do day in and they out, Matthew 13 shares this story like this:

Then he (Jesus) told them many things in parables, saying: “A farmer went out to sow his seed. As he was scattering the seed, some fell along the path, and the birds came and ate it up.  Some fell on rocky places, where it did not have much soil. It sprang up quickly, because the soil was shallow. But when the sun came up, the plants were scorched, and they withered because they had no root.  Other seed fell among thorns, which grew up and choked the plants.  Still other seed fell on good soil, where it produced a crop—a hundred, sixty or thirty times what was sown.  Whoever has ears, let them hear.”

The marketplace, like a farm, is where I work. I often see this parable as something to consider when I’m at work. But more importantly, I tend to reflect on myself to as what kind of path I fell.

Considering the parable, Jesus gave us a good point in sharing the meaning of the parable is on the next few verses:

“Listen then to what the parable of the sower means: When anyone hears the message about the kingdom and does not understand it, the evil one comes and snatches away what was sown in their heart. This is the seed sown along the path.

I oftentimes doubt if I’m doing the right thing at work. I feel that I make some effort to make sure that I do my best to deliver results. In the long run, I often see myself moving away from what the bible speak about – specially about standing to what is right, to have the mind of Christ in all things and the fruit of the spirit in crucial times.

The seed falling on rocky ground refers to someone who hears the word and at once receives it with joy. But since they have no root, they last only a short time. When trouble or persecution comes because of the word, they quickly fall away. 

I honestly don’t brag about my faith. I seldom share it to my co-workers. I don’t talk about my faith as much as I want to. Of course, my actions will always reflect my christian standards but how long do I often make the mistake of not standing my ground to make sure I close an item? Ugh!

The seed falling among the thorns refers to someone who hears the word, but the worries of this life and the deceitfulness of wealth choke the word, making it unfruitful.

My walk in the Lord is not smooth. I am financially independent but I worry too much about my expenses. I often work just to pay off some debts and does not prioritize some stuff like before. I failed a couple of times with my tithes and oftentimes, give in to my drive to have a new gadget. (ugh,ugh!)

But the seed falling on good soil refers to someone who hears the word and understands it. This is the one who produces a crop, yielding a hundred, sixty or thirty times what was sown.”

But in all of these situations, I find myself referring to the word of God for comfort, for direction, for alignment and as much as I can for life lessons. This is where my faith fruits comes in. I see it in the way I talk, the way I do stuff and even with the ministry opportunities I have.

But let’s face this reality – being in the BPO industry has a lot of challenges and I honestly think that I’m currently intertwined with all of this at the same time at the moment.

I think I started the last few paragraphs with “Buts” justifying my actions and need to end with the reality that my faith comes from hearing (and correcting myself) for the benefit to grow in my father’s love, to my mentor’s teaching and to the one who’s lessons never fades in time. The word, as referred to the parable, is not just the gospel but the entire scripture that 2 Timothy 3:16 speaks about:

All Scripture is God-breathed and is useful for teaching, rebuking, correcting and training in righteousness,  so that the servant of God[a] may be thoroughly equipped for every good work.

Because of what God has done, I am confident in saying that I was taught the right way, rebuked and corrected and trained to walk this path with confidence to do every good work.

The Life We Live

I am more confident that I value life after my own experience. It has become a testimony of what stubborness can do but with the ever-present grace and sufficiency of God’s love towards us allows us to believe and move on.

God’s power works only when we accept our own weaknesses,it is by far,one truth that I had to experience and believe with all my heart.

Why am I bugging talking about this here? Well,it’s been six months from the time I started working and I thank the Lord that my 2nd chance to work is a blessing in disguise.

Praises only to Him who is able to keep me from falling!

God is In Control And I Hated Him For That

It’s August 8, 2015 today and if I’m not mistaken, this marks the first year where I experienced one of the greatest challenges in my life – being admitted in the hospital. It has been a gruesome battle to overcome the fear of death, the reality of being sick and the mercy of God.

The difference From Last Year to This Year
The difference From Last Year to This Year

It was August 6, a Thursday back then when I was rushed to the hospital for hard-breathing, low heart rate and a pretty skinny face. I was injected more than 6 times to take some blood samples, checked with some apparatus and an oxygen tank on my side. I was not familiar with and stayed at the emergency room for a pretty much 10 hours before transferred to a private room while I wait for the results of the examinations.

After 12 hours of waiting, I got one of the hardest reality in my 31 years in life – I had severe community-acquired pneumonia. It was a battle I was not ready to face with less than 90% oxygen in the blood, a blood infection and a pretty bad lung capacity of just having one lube in my lungs working at 25%.

Looking back in what has happened made me see life in a different perspective. A life that led me to realize that my life was put on-hold, where I need to rely for someone’s hands to feed me, to take care of my needs and the cry to just move away from the sad situation.

One verse that helped me through the struggle is Isaiah 41:10 that says “So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.” This verse put in light my situation that God is in control and I hated him for that. At long last, I said it here aloud.

Although I’ve expressed my personal stand with my faith in Jesus, this is one truth that God has revealed in my life when I can’t get out of the hospital bed alone. It was the fear to put everything at risk to my Father’s hands. I know his hands are bigger and safer but my heart’s fear seems to be bigger than any verses or words of encouragement I could get directly from Him.

My stubborn self-will led me to my dilemma and the pride in my heart doesn’t want to accept it. But indeed, his grace is sufficient in all that we are. When I was at a lost, the Lord led me to my “desert” of depression. It was through a song that says “Our God is greater, our God is stronger, God you are higher than any other. Our God is Healer, Awesome in Power, Our God! Our God!” that brought me back to the truth that sets me free. He is in control and even when the darkest hour shows the storm up ahead, He is above and beyond the storm. He is in the “eye of the storm” where perfect peace is the center of it all.

The first time I was able to walk on my own, stand in worship at church all by myself and just raise my hands was through an old song I first led in worship that spoke of WHO HE IS – “Our God is an awesome GOD, HE REIGNS…”

Indeed, He reigns in my situation. I have recovered from that dreadful day and I have to say it was not an easy road to take. But one thing’s for sure, He still is in control and no fear of death nor what lies ahead can separate me from his love. This verse which I will end was one that reminds me that everything – even the storms in life is worth to return all glory and honor to him who is able to keep me from falling.

Now unto him that is able to keep you from falling, and to present you faultless before the presence of his glory with exceeding joy,

To the only wise God our Saviour, be glory and majesty, dominion and power, both now and ever. Amen.” – Apostle Jude, New Testament Author

Do I really hate God for what happened? I didn’t hate him for what happened, I hated myself for allowing it to happen and because of His love, grace and help from my family and friends that led me to repent and get back on track.

This is me now.
This is me now.

Be blessed in Christ Jesus our Lord!