months before i have decided to plan ahead for a mission trip for thailand next summertime. it’s a good plan. but the question now is, is it God’s plan?
when i was able to take some time to talk with our staffworker about the plan again, she said that the date was move a month after, making it in a school day instead of the said plan of may. was it coincidence or just a deprived opportunity?
alot of questions again…and i think, this is really crazy. but making a decision to take the opportunity over the chance to go back to school is a big problem. i love both and i couldn’t just look over the other and say yes to either one. my mind is fuzzed if this opportunity really is for me or not. it was i who was part of the first few who said about having thailand. i love to go there and experience missions cross-culturally.
but maybe it’s because my intentions are really not that good and maybe in line with God’s intentions. i am not asking for this opportunity to really share and work with the “m’s”. mine is just for the heck of going there and trying to experience life outside the philiipines for a month…and make the most of what i learned for exposures’ sake and not God’s.
but even before the time i was thinking these over, i saw the problem of going in may, i might have no time for enrollment and i couldn’t just relax again for another six months for an exposure trip to another country…that would be intentional, if i may say.
so, right now, i will decide which course to take…i do hope this is right, but i also hope it is inclined with God’s plan for me and not just my own self will.
here goes, i will not go to thailand because it is an opportunity that would block my coming back to college… i need to sacrifice my dream to be able to finish my schooling…if the Lord permits, i will really have an exposure to another country someday, i pray that the Lord will honor this desire and decision.
this time, i am thinking clearly.