When Melancholy Hits You Hard

You probably think that I’ve been neglecting this blog for quite some time but that’s not the case, or probably the entire scenario…

All of us sometimes needs space to reflect, look back and tries to clear things out. For whatever reasons, it can and helpfully get us back on track.

Since this is a blog about being melancholic, I’ll start by posting what I placed in my instagram account awhile ago. Here it goes:

I woke up with a very heavy feeling today. And yet, my mind wants to remind me that even King David encouraged himself in times of his own despair.

In 1 Samuel 30:6 the author shared “And David was greatly distressed…but David encouraged himself in the LORD his God.” Life as we know it will always have its ups and downs. We look at it differently and sometimes jokingly. But in the end, it is up to us whether we want to stay where we are or we rise above the situation, continue to pursue the things we love, leave behind the things we fear or start back to step zero.

But it all starts and ends with God.

This is a long post but believe me, I’ll be back to post more #melancholic #musings because #melancholicmode is on and #reflections would jump up here and there.

So,there it is. After trying to overcome the sad melancholic mode for about 6 months, it hit me hard on my birthday that I’ll be forever be “melancholic” and a few days after, got rebuked that when life hits you hard – I don’t need to roll down with it, I need to rise-up, believe in the good things in life, encourage myself and get my act together because I am not yet done.

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A Testimony Talk

“The moment we make our mess into a message of hope and the testings our testimony, we celebrate the victory we have in Christ Jesus.”

I had the opportunity to talk last night in a youth group about 1 Corinthians 13. By God’s grace, I hope I was able to present a very good and thorough explaination of what true love is, basing it in the written word of God, the bible.

Amazing things happen when you know God walks through the door and makes you tell your testimony to a group of youngsters.

Perhaps, I’ll share it here one time but for now, be praying to God about it. 😉

Gifts Anyone???

People from all ages expects something this Christmas season. And to us Filipinos, it’s the giving and receiving of gifts that makes this season a far better celebration than fiestas and other festivities in this part of the world.

 When I was a kid, I was expectant to have the gifts from all my aunts, godparents and all…It was a time for me when counting my money and gifts an important part of my Christmas day.  And then goes the reality of growing up. The giving of gifts tend to go overnight and I end up receiving nothing at all.

 Hahaha… do I sound like a child who’s jealous at other kids getting gifts this Christmas?

 Understanding the times means knowing that my aunt’s priorities are with the little kids-my nephews and niece and my little cousins. Economic struggles tend to disclose grown-ups like me the necessity to be given gifts, knowing I’m old enough and understand the situation at hand. Hahaha, but I don’t deny the fact that I still want to receive gifts this Christmas!

 And to all those who are grown-ups and working like me, cheer-up! Life doesn’t end at Christmas and besides, you can buy stuff for ourselves which I believe is one gift not bestowed to everyone else. 🙂

Of Love and Relationships

I often wonder sometimes how life can be so ironic. People asks you questions that seems to be answerable for us and yet, we ourselves are bounded by our very own issues we often need an answer from someone.

I was asked by a friend earlier through a text message if ever “She should fight for him? Or let go?” and my answer was quite surprising even to me.

I told her that “it will still be your choice… fighting for someone may not mean winning it but at least trying to do d most makes it worthwhile.” Not later than 20 seconds that I received quite a favorable thanks for the enlightenment that I found myself questioning the same things over.

I often wonder whether to get back to that special someone whom I lost track with because of so many things in my life. Couldn’t resist the feeling of being afraid to be in a relationship – afraid of the commitment and the fears of finding the right person.

Upon seeing many things in perspective, I am in a way perplexed with my own stand about love and relationships yet feel adequate to answer a few questions by those that are younger than me. I often wonder how many of us guys really does have the courage to stand for the one we love and speak of the things we desire for the future. How in many things, women who has this desire to meet the prince charming in any novels and fairy tales can be counted few to the modern reality of life.

Crazy as this may sound, finding a relationship right now is not in my list maybe, just maybe, because of fear -not of being rejected, but of the future as well.

Late Night Stuff…Whew!

It’s the wee hours of the night and I’m still at the office due to some odd reasons. Whew!

I just had a talk earlier with my boss and discussed the possibilities of relocating somewhere in the Metro Manila area. The chat went something like this –

Vir: Ei, Matt, still busy?
Matt: Yes chief,it’s ok…
Vir: uhmmm…got something to tell you.
Matt: What’s that?
Vir: I’m freaking nervous…waaah!
Matt: Come on, spill it out…
Vir: Uhm,I’m planning to relocate in Manila area.

Just to clear it out, the main reason of planning to transfer there is for growth and for my Mama who is staying alone in Manila by herself. And I don’t like it to be that way forever. No one’s close enough to help her out.

Matt: So, when do you plan to move?
Vir: if ever possible, January or February…
Matt: Do you also want to relocate in any of the sites in Manila?
Vir: Yeah! That would be great!
Matt: Let’s talk this Sunday and see our options…
Vir: OK, Sunday then.


It was funny really when Matt asked me if ever I wanted to transfer to any of the sites in Manila. He maybe thought that I had other companies in mind with the transfer. And in doing so, it made it easier for me to transfer in Manila with the same interests and work awaiting.

Although I am not yet certain where I’ll be thrown for work, I’m confident that Matt knows the best area for me to grow. I know there are openings in Tarlac, and it’s quite far from Manila but definitely a good place in terms experience. Besides, I want challenge in my work and getting into a site that will soon to open is a great start!

Until here only…Bye!

Fiesta and CopyCats!

It’s Tuesday and I have no work! (hopefully!)

It’s fiesta time here in Dumaguete and people are busy buzzing either cooking or looking for a place to be full. And yes folks, good thing for those working in call centers wherein they get to be awake till lunchtime for the “chibugan” sessions somewhere out there. And of course, those who are enjoying the local holiday!

I was wondering what other activities aside from “eating” that can be exciting and interesting during fiesta time…hhhmmm, What else can I do over a day of no work and in a fiesta?

Well, to start off, I decided to wake up early and have some wifi time in McDonald’s, and was a little bit shock seeing a new construction at the side of BPI for a new Jollibee Outlet. Pinoy nga naman….

I am no business tycoon or something but in my opinion, having 3 Jollibee stores in a little city called Dumaguete can be too much. The Jollibee Perdices branch is 5 minutes away from the Cathedral church. And not to mention, it’s just Sundays when this particular area be full with a lot of people. For other days, I’d say less than a handfull will be in this area.

And not to mention, McDonald’s is also nearby wherein the market can be divided, not to mention a local resto – HiWay 10 is on the next block. Whew. ( I promise to take a pic on these 3 later on today,hopefully…)

On another note, Filipinos has this tendency to compete (whether upfront or other way), that makes me wonder where they got it? I often wonder why in one block, there are 6 sari-sari stores, in one street, 3 barber shops and 2 beauty salons and of course, wherein 5 “carinderias” are lined-up somewhere in between.

As a Filipino, it makes me ashame to say that “a lot are copycats…” and the uniqueness of the Filipino spirit is deprived from our need rather than being a trend setter. And I finally realized what the owner of the email from PinoyGuyGuide when he commented on our way of copying things. Grrr… Too bad!

Just another early melancholy…hehehehe.

Acquaintance and Frienship?

It’s another late night post after a day with so many things to do yet only a few things has beenasid and done. ( What’s that again?)

Anyway, Can anything be excited than meeting new people especially if you’re not in a hurry? To many of us, what makes acquaintances are people with no time to take a sip and talk awhile (one moment…one Nescafe!) and get to learn more about other people – whether it’s the mundane stories of someone to a passionate desire for another. Couple it up with an attentive ear and you’ll have a new friend in no time.

In a deeper sense though, acquaintance is always the first step to befriend someone (and maybe more…) but how do we determine those who are good from the bad? from the interesting to the mundane? And who would forget, from the way they look and dress to you know what I mean… ( Sorry!!!)

Let’s say in all of these, the common ground for any friendship will be the “sense to belong” attitude of the group. I’m blessed to say that I have officemates who are definitely for the GO when it comes to talk and discuss about life, leisure, love and anything else that revolves around each and everyone of us.

To Thirdy, Stan (New Team Mate and not on the Pic below!!!), Master Ai, Kat, Clei,Tanya and Cha0 – two thumbs up to the best Recruitment Team in the entire TeleTech Company!!!Me, Clei,CHao,Tanya,Master Ai,Kat and Thirdy (infront)

Just This Saturday

My entire Saturday seems to be mundane as usual. Just to make something out of my boredom, I tried taking pictures in the downtown area, discretely as possible. Imagine myself stopping in front of Ever Mall just to get a shot of the people walking around or leaping at the glass window up in Super Lee to get a shot downward. Hehehe…

At EverMall, It was fast so it seems too blurry.

At Lee Super Plaza FoodCourt

I ate up the whole ice cream choco sundae

A view of Mart One from the Top ( Lee)

On the Left side of the window…
Taken infront of the office at exactly 11:40 something in the morning, Sat. Nov. 22,2008

Anyway, just sharing with you some amateur pics taken by me earlier…Would it be fine to say here that someone invited me supposedly to join a pictorial session for a fashion show at the Negros Convention Center but I declined? Uhm, Don’t really have the guts to go pro for now…especially, “pro bono” hehehe…

Happy Saturday Weeknight Everyone!!!

Freedom – Can it really exist?

I was watching “Soldiers of Change” at home and it was really interesting. Th story shares a lot of things of every man or race’s desire. It was a story about life, passion and true worth. It was a fascinating story about freedom.

It made me think of our own freedom and how many lives have been sacrificed for such “freedom”. Even today, our own community still cries for the changes that we have cried out for so long. Try to see the news of people in the streets, documentaries of leftists and rightists fighting for that one cause we surely desire for so long.

But can true freedom really exist? ( Or experience?)

I don’t want to blog about the meaning of freedom, a lot has been made and remade to capture the exact definition of it. All I want to air out is that freedom, although many have staked their life for it, is not what we sometimes expect it to be. After watching the movie, I came to a realization that sometimes freedom is the absence of life for another.

Freedom gets the life of the other, for another to be truly free.

A person’s perception about freedom varies from good to bad, rich to poor or vice-versa. Freedom, for centuries has been tagged with getting away from oppressors and yet, unfortunately, to an oppressor, freedom is taking away the will of others to experience it. But to someone who has been in darkness for so long, FREEDOM is something as a gift that cannot be given without someone loosing his freedom,and sometimes the freedom to live.

Watch any movies about freedom and you’ll see the dreaded reality that freedom has and will always be with a price. And that price is not one’s own income or estate, but of someone’s life.

When we were oppressed during the Martial Law, many media and political figures stood for such freedom. But look at where we are now, still there is (and will always be) people power in the streets, still there is corruption,there is poverty, hatred and much more. The freedom that we long for seems to be the slavery of another, not by mere men but with the situation they are into. Imagine the downfall of the Marcos’ regime but one person’s life laid down (or killed for it).

In our human aspect, freedom is what we want to experience the life without boundaries. It’s the life we always dreamed of, a desire for more or even pay for. But to many of us, freedom can also be the opportunity to get more from others and sometimes the life of others. And to some, it’s that freedom that cause them their greatest fear- loosing the life they always wanted to live out.

I am not arguing of taking away freedom, but just the reality that freedom has a price tag – and it is definitely not money but life of another.Can someone’s life be freed for another man’s death? Life maybe unfair, but I believe freedom is much bitterly unfair.

Negros Blog Rolls: Are You “In” or “Out”?

Blogging can be really addictive like friendster and other networking sites. But how does a blogger commune with other bloggers in one area?

If you’re on the same dilemma as we are, then cheer up – There’s hope!

There are other bloggers who are into this too! So with this in mind, I’ve created a particular networking website named – “Negros BlogRolls” to suffice the need about meeting friends and bloggers in the area. I would like to reiterate that this blog community will be solely for bloggers (amateur or professional) from the area and not any other networking site you have in mind.

The goal of the community is to gather a good number of bloggers in the area where we can communicate, share posts and learn about tips and tricks in hitting it big in the world of blogging.
(and of course, among other things…)

And by the way, Kam, another blogger who is calling out all the bloggers from Dumaguete and Neighboring areas to gather and create the core group to make spark something good for all of us. If you are interested, you may visit her blog or send her an email c/o kaakaams@gmail.com

So, what are you waiting for? Are YOU “in” or “out”?

Spread the news and be part of blog history in the making! Hope you’d also check the community – NegrosBlogRolls!

Picture Perfect

Can anything be addictive than having a new camera on hand?

With the busy life that I have, I can still have the time to capture on camera everything I find interest in to. And at most, it’s inside the office! With friends and co-workers gulping to pose and smile at every click, who would not take the plunge of trying it out.

For keep’s sake, I’m saving it in Multiply as an online “portfolio”. But basically taking pictures will be a hobby to beat with the odds of working my ass up until December.

Come to think of it, most of my captures are expression of faces and emotions and I kind of like it when it comes to capturing unedited or let’s say real and captured reactions from people.


These two pictures are taken during the company one hour outreach last sunday. They didn’t know I took a shot at them while they were mesmerized by the stories and toys they got with the loot bags.

The one below is my niece, Ashley. Typical cute kid who knows how to project. She has a lot of pics at home because she is definitely a kid who loves to be in the limelight. And I have to admit, although she looks angelic, she can be very naughty sometimes and may win you over her cries and woes for food!


The rest can be seen at my Multiply account, of course, If you have a multiply account – feel free to add me.

Asus EEE Series Notebook

I was wondering if ever people would be interested to buy my Asus EEE Series laptop. I bought this at around P 20,000.00 around 5 months ago and unfortunately, I seldom use the laptop because of being too busy to just chill anywhere with a wifi access.

The laptop is in good condition, definitely no scratches or whatsoever. And has the capacity of 3.5 hours battery.
It’s also wifi ready and has built-in speakers and webcam.
I’m not really techy so I can’t give you the exact specs of the laptop but if you wish to ask about anything, just leave me a comment or send an email to kewlkidd22@yahoo.com and I’d be glad to answer it as best as I can.
Yeah, by the way, I’m selling it at P 14,000.00 and it’s in a first come-first serve basis.
Regards everyone!

Robinsons Place: At a Glance

A lot of people have been waiting for the new mall to open hopefully next year – Robinsons Place!

With the many rumors of the said mall not to be finished or whatever, I took some pictures to see how the Robinsons site has been doing and building. The pictures were taken last Thursday, November 13th, 2008.

Glance at a distance

Well, Hopefully this place will be up in no time so we can have “variety” of places to hang-out and chill-out other than the usual ammenities that we currently up.

Just an Early Hue…

I was up early because I wanted to upload my new pics online at friendster and in hot dumagueteños as well. Unfortunately, Friendster is down so I decided to upload it in Flickr and get back to it as soon as the network is done with their maintenance.

By the way, Hot Dumagueteños is at 13 members, unfortunately, most are not from Dumaguete… Bad me! I forgot to double check my emails before sending the automatic invite of the website. Tsk…Tsk…Tsk…

Anyway, this can also be a good avenue of us ( from here) showing them what we can be and what we have as “people of the province” ( Yikes!)

Out of the total 13 members, I know of only 3 who are from here and 1 of them is in the KSA working. ( Hi EPpie!!!)

So, where are the rest of the hot dumaagueteños? Hhhmmm….

Here is one latest pic I got after taking a bath… Hehehe… ( What an ending!) Ain’t it hot? joke!!!

The problem with this picture is that I took it inside the bathroom and the bowl is at sight! (Gosh!)

Anyway, It’s still is a good take!

Hehehe…

A Day at the Office!

I always wanted to have a digital camera and give photography a shot for quite some time. So with all the equating of money, timeline and other payments,I decided to order one from a co-worker. And just today, I got with my new Sony Cyber-Shot DSC-W120. Yey!

The first thing that popped to my mind was create another blog about the pictures I’ve taken but the site is still on the construction period. Hehehe… So, what can I do with a cybershot on my hand? I took the liberty to take the pics of my co-workers and just the typical day at the office…

All in A Day’s WOrk…

A new member has joined our Recruitment Team and I’d say he had a really blasting day having to see and experience how we do our daily tasks plus the weird stuff we do the entire day!

I haven’t talk to him but mind you, I was the one who interviewed him for the Associate post and then recommended him for the Specialist post instead.



At last, we have 3 guys in the team and I’d say this will be exciting as all tasks and responsibilities can be proportionately divided by everyone,not to mention we can now have 3 teams comprising of a guy-girl tandem!

At the right side is a sneak peak of the testing area with the 3 guys and a gal. This was taken in the late afternoon before I had an interview with a particular applicant. Hehehe… Can anyone say ” Narcissistic”?


Of course, the day wont end with the entire team having our Wednesday meeting with the updates, the hits and the fun of chatting about what’s about to happen in Cebu, the Duma gods show and the like. At this juncture, The team decided to have the TA Board updated with the new team member and of course, new photographer as well – me!

Thanks for Reading!

Dumaguete Bloggers!

Yey! My 2 blogs was added to Dumaguete site! And yes folks, it’s something to be excited about if you tell me because I have been looking for Dumagueteños who are into blogging as well.

To mention Dumaguete bloggers, the upcoming NegOr IT Expo 2008 is inviting all bloggers and technopreneurs to join this December 1-2, 2008 at the Negros Convention Center. Although joining the event may incur cost, I believe this will be an avenue to share ideas and be heard during the 2 day event.

I’m currently part of the organizing commitee ( sleaky me… Hehehehe) and I’d say this is something promising. So, for all those bloggers who are into e-business, send me a message and who know’s you’d hit it big after this event!

By the way, the said event will be handled by the Negros Oriental/ Dumaguete ICT Group,who are composed of different schools, goverment and private businesses respectively. Click my name to learn more!

Thanks,
Vir

Wandering Around…

I’ve been wandering around the net for days searching for good blogs coming from Dumaguete and I’d say I’m not in vain. So, for this post I’ll be sharing some blogrolls from people that I know and not know of that has good content and exposure.

To start of, I’ll share about some interesting site I’ve been going back and forth this weekend.

Blogroyalty – Cool layout and interesting topics from politics, social issues and personal experiences. This blog is from a good friend from my hometown who was just hailed one of the “Dumaguete’s Top 5 Young Achievers Under 25″. I’d say he’s gone this far with his achievement and will be taking over blogosphere in just a few spins. 😉

Memoirs on a Post-it – This one is something worth to keep track on. I’d say the author, Joselle, is an articulate and interesting blogger with a personal touch to her blog entries. Check it out for yourself if you’d not be mesmerized for her Apo experience and review. 🙂

Dumaguete City – Although I’m a bit confused if this is a blog or a pure bred website, it does contain some interesting links to a few Dumaguete blogs here. And I think, I found what PinoyBlogero was talking about. 😀

Tech Hallucinations – is a good stop if your into techno-writing and wants to know the latest about Dumaguete Technology. 🙂

These are some of the blogs I gathered for now since I only have a few minutes left before I’d doze off to sleep tonight.

Hhhm… Interesting that I was able to find some blogs coming from people from here. Hopefully, I can connect to most of them and see if a possible blog event will be doable before the year ends. 🙂

For more details on what I’m talking about – Click here.

What Makes a REAL Man?

It has been long debated of what marks a man. is it the way he moves? the words he speaks or even the good or the bad things he decided to do makes him a real man?

To many of us, a man showing emotions can be a very evident fact of him being a wimp, a sissy or a failure. Regardless of what their reasons are, men has been regarded as strong and invulnerable to emotional attacks. But sometimes, these facts or fallacies sometimes become scapegoats to showing what’s real and what’s true in all aspects of being a man. And should I add – A REAL MAN.

A real man for me is someone who has the capacity to show care and comfort to whom he loves. Much more, show teardrops when the situation needs it.

For such a long time, crying has been disregarded as a man’s weak point but in reality, it’s the strongest that he can get. Shedding tears is a sign of being created by God with emotions and the right DNA structure including the capacity to cry, feel and be hurt.

Being Honest is not a crime –

If you ask me if I cry, I’d say yes. I cry for the right reasons and for the right people. To a guy, crying is an expression of being real with what they feel. It’s as if saying – I’m sorry, I miss you and the like. It’s an emotional expression of being true to what you feel and taking away the barriers of cynicism, lies and deceit.

If you ask me if I’ve been hurt, I’d say yes. I’ve been hurt by my loved ones, by a friend and a special someone. Like many girls saying they have been hurt before – so do we as guys. A man’s heart is torn when someone leaves him for good, a guy’s perspective is perplexed when the hope of his dreams are shattered and especially, a boy’s feelings is wounded when everyone laughs at him because of being afraid.

The Truth Vs. The Lies

Sometimes, our society’s idealism kills us to being true to ourselves. This has become a lie to dormant that it’s like being the truth instead of the lies.

And what lie is that?

That in reality, a guy who cries shows the real him, unmasked of all the coated lies men and women from decades ago created to hide reality in all of us. There is no difference or even an alteration of his being a man when he shows emotion at the right time.

If you ask me, men who disregards cries and hurts of others are men, who in the history of mankind be forever known as people who started the holocaust, people who have been thirsty for blood that they have closed their hearts to the reality of emotions and created war.

So, what really makes a man?

It’s the heart to be open and be real with his emotions. It’s the fact that in this world, he doesn’t regard crying as for sissies and being hurt as a man’s indication of a failure.

A man, if you ask me, is a person who has the guts, like many of us, cry even after seeing a family movie that speaks of love and hope for men like us. 😉

The Dillema of Weights!


I’m getting fatter everyday and I hate it. My dillema is not the necessity to stop eating but the need for excercise to loose the fattenings. (haha…)

So, how do I get to do the thinning cycle when I don’t have the time ( or so, i think!) to excercise and be fit?

With this dillema comes the plan (or hopeful plan…) to get fit and lose weight, and hopefully stay thin for awhile.

The only funny thing I guess is the idea of me wanting to get some meat in me that I started to eat much, eat whatever things to gain weight and look good in it. But I guess, like anyone would say, We don’t get satisfied over it that we tend to have more…and more…and more!

So, when my tummy gets wider and my face gets round, people advises me to lose weight, others would say to stay at that point – dont go over or beyond that scale. ( As if that will happen!)

But with all this, I guess my own problem is that I dont eat the right food, and has a sleaky diet. My co-worker and friend Kathy told me to be careful with the things I eat because I’m always having LBM and I’d say yes, she’s correct. (Ouch!)

Friends, I’ve written this blog to document everything for my goal before the year ends – lose weight and be fit.

From time to time, I’ll be posting something about the things I’m doing to be focus and be adamant in losing weight. So, if anyone’s reading this and thinks I’m bluffing, we’ll see in the last Day of December 2008. Hehehe… I’m up for the challenge!